Sleep

It draws my weary eyes to close
my body ceases to move
lying down on the white clouds of calm
sleep shall always soothe

Summer Lie [Written Summer 2005]

I had dreamed about this summer
a dream that I would finally be free
a dream where I would find my soul
a dream where I would learn to be

Instead my dream fell apart
piercing me like a shard of glass
hurting me like like a painful blow
I could only wait for it to pass

Never did get to see
never did get to dream
never did get to find my heart
nothing was ever what it seemed

Too bad about my so-called dream
where my friend and I would laugh and smile
upon the sand where we would lie
I would give anything for that little while

Under the palms we would relax
letting our minds finally free
under the sun we would watch
seeing what we had never seen

This summer is already over
too bad my dream just passed me by
it was totally fake, completely unreal
it might as well have been a lie

Waiting

During this uncertain time of life
I've realized how to depend on only one
that one being my own self
figures no one else will get it done

Certain people will forever let me down
waiting for them is like waiting for snow
while I stand out here in bleakest cold
hoping for something entirely too slow

I can't wait that long for change
I'll have to learn to let them go
I'll stand through this darkness alone
until the first stars begin to glow

When I see the brightest stars emerge
I'll make wishes for the people that stayed
those who encouraged me through the darkest hours
and guided me the entire way

--

For those that I can truly depend on: Thank you, I am forever indebted to you.

Untitled

When you said what you said today
confirmed that I couldn't trust you like in the past
so unlike the friendship long ago
it's true that nothing good can ever last

Night

(image by me)

I wish I could just let go
so I could enjoy the peaceful night
I would lie under the stars
to bathe in hope, to imbibe the light

I see white horses running by
across the dark and endless sky
I grasp one's mane and then I ride
look above and watch me fly

Together we weave the web of hope
the silvery threads act as a guide
so if you happen to lose your way
you'll always find a path to ride

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You stare at me
and then turn away
typical that you aren't
planning to stay

You think that you're
too good for me
just wait for a bit
and then we'll see

With You [Written forever ago]

I'll be your candle in the dark
when you've lost your sight
the darkness will go
the brightness will flow
with you I share my light

I'll be your star in the night
when you've lost your way
the evening will lift
the clouds will drift
with you I choose to stay

I love you
I'm always there
I love you
I'll always care

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Sweep me up
off the ground
whisper to me
"no need for sound"

Hold me close
in the night
whisper to me
"you're a beautiful sight"

Keep me fond
in your heart
whisper to me
"we're never apart"

Remember tonight
as I cry
as our story fades
in a blink of an eye

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Why should I let you control reality?
Let me be whoever I choose to be

Just let me go
And set me free. . .

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Life is beautiful
but impossible right now
I hope to soon find
beauty again, somehow

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Tonight you seem to be miles away
all I can do is think of you
so I gaze at the infinite expanse of blue
and imagine that you're looking too

On This Day

Have I told you what you mean to me?
you're my one person that can see
the voices echoing from my heart
capturing words that I set free

Have I told you what you've done for me?
you make me smile during the darkest hour
when it seems like the world will fall
you always instill the reviving power

It's all for you on this special day
I celebrate your presence in my life
I celebrate that you're alive today
I celebrate that you're here to stay

Wish

When I make a wish for you
I gaze upon the brightest star
I always whisper, "I miss you too"
And I almost hear, "I'm never far"

A Letter for You

(image from Photobucket, edited by me)

Hello,

How is everything in your life?
I haven't heard from you in a while
I am desperate to hear your sincere voice
and recall your familiar and loving smile

What I would give to go back again
and relive the unforgettable times we shared
the stupid, the funny, but all memorable
during those times when we truly cared

Yet nothing we do will ever stop change
and nothing we do will ever slow down time
I am just so thankful that you are still
an important person in my life

Now the sky streaks with gold and gray
as the colors of day are fading away
and night-time will soon take over day
but I know that our memories will stay

Because radiance pours down from the heavens
the brilliant light shines from the stars
so I can see our past written in the skies
so I can see us imprinted on our hearts

Farewell.

Memories

(image from Photobucket)

You can't step back
into the past
but just remember
that memories last

Beginning of Autumn

A light breeze
A distinct bird call
I realize it now
Finally, it's fall!

The clean blue skies
The crisp fresh air
The blooming of colors
It's all there

The aura of calm
The harmonious sounds
The scent of pine
It's all around

May you embrace
the most beautiful season
and live every moment
knowing the reason

Dream

(Picture by me)

I hope you never let go of your dream
no matter how challenging it may be
because dreams are always further than they seem
just listen to yourself and ignore reality

I believe today is a day for dreams!

I Am Anne Frank [written in 2004 (?)]

I am the one who keeps on dreaming

I hear the sound of my own hushed breathing

I see myself hoping for more

I say that every fight is worth fighting for

I cry when no one listens to what I say

I am a girl who sees light in every day.

I am a silent Jew in hiding

I want to believe that all persecuted are fighting

I need the courage to live through this war

I hope to understand what I am doing this for

I fear that I will soon be found

I am a girl who speaks without sound.

I am a girl who had the courage

I feel that my living father was not discouraged

I try to be a girl without self doubt

I wonder if I will ever find my way out

I dream about inspiring you

I am a girl whose dream came true.

Thinking of You

(Picture by me)

You're on my mind
and in my heart
remember that
so we're never apart

Perfect

Who is this girl?

Quiet and discreet
intelligent and kind
much better than me
yet such a fair mind

How can I hate her
she's so nice to me
she's the one person
I wish I could be

Who is this girl?

Just a Few Simple Words

Thinking about that one summer...

Running along on an endless road
under the summer sky's hues of red
reminds me of the few meaningful words
to me that one summer you said:

"I'm so proud of you...Can you believe..."

Hearing you say just a few simple words
with such kindness and sincerity
places a lightness upon my heart
and encourages me to run
just a little farther
just a little faster
and makes me feel
a whole lot happier

It's amazing how a few simple words
have impacted my life forever
may you continue to inspire others
today and ever after

And just so you know
because you probably don't:
I would run across the world for you
just to hear you say those words again
words coming from a soul that true
and relive the summer that changed me

---

Thanks for your praise; I love you both so much.

Superficial

So she claims to be real
and puts on a good show
but what's below the surface
sometimes I don't know

Illogical reasons
super sensitivity
unreliable promises
disarranged priorities

Just stop pretending:
It's so superficial

Untitled [Written a while ago]

I still remember...
your laugh, your cry,
your hand around mine.

I still remember...
your beauty, your stride,
your dancing green eyes.

And now you're gone
but your spirit still remains
tears run down my face
and entwine with rain.

My heart feels so heavy
the pain is so strong
is it my fault?
how did I go wrong?

But I hope that you haven't changed
wherever you may be
because when you return one day...

I want to see...
your laugh, your cries,
your hand around mine.

I want to see...
your beauty, your stride,
your dancing green eyes.

So don't ever change your spirit
never change who you are
I hope to live to see one day
you and I together--
upon a wishing star.

Jealous

Jealousy is like a poisonous vine
strangling kindness in my heart
so that a second later when I think again
I can't tell love and hatred apart

Please, just don't talk to me

Hope [Reflections Entry 2005 (?)]

I wonder why I live with hope.

Morning:

the sun rises

Revealing a new day

Light spills out

directing my way.

I begin on journey

The path is straight

the direction is clear

no need to wait.

So I cross the ocean

crisp wind blows

the tranquil water

calms and glows.

I run into a maelstrom

the light disappears

the waters overflow

into gallons of tears.

the peace within

my escape from fear

is a place unseen

for many years.

And I feel the thunder

Rumble deep inside

the wrath of frustration

cannot be forced to hide.

So I touch the rain

pooling in my eyes

pain of sadness

buried in unspoken lies.

Yet I search for the rainbow

After the storm

the vibrant colors

keep me warm.

Because after every dark

There is always light

It may be difficult to find

just wait—it'll be bright.

Night:

under the stars

I watch them shine

At last I realize

this life is mine.

Because each day is a lifetime

I must strive to achieve

And as hard as it is

I must learn to believe.

I have walked down a path

which has shown me how to stand

And after all I have been through

I am finally beginning to understand.

This is the reflection of myself

This is how much I believe--

It's how much I believe in life

It's how much I believe in me.

No wonder why I live with hope…

Ars Poetica - [from 2.22.05]

A poem should be compelling and mysterious

As the moonlight,

Secretive

As soft whispers to the ears,

Carefree as a flying horse

Of where rain clouds have dampened,

A poem should be silent

As the moonbeams.

A poem should be a sparkle in life

As the stars glimmer,

Soaring, as the sun rises,

The magic colors of nature,

Flying, as the light fades

The written language of beauty--

A poem should be a sparkle in life

As the stars glimmer.

A poem should be equal to:

Something true.

For all the love in the world

An endless journey and silent trial.

For joy

The shimmering waves crash at the shore—

A poem should not speak,

But inspire.

Only Way

The only way to win someone
is to be best.

The only way to feel accomplishment
is to be perfect.

The only way to be loved the most...
well you get the point.

Some Days

Some days
I wish I could fly away
And come back
Another day

When I return
I hope to find
a smile on your face
and me on your mind