faltering

red
lights glaring, surrounding me
my view, hazy
the familiar sound of rain
against my window
while i wait

patience
and time pauses
the world stops speaking
i can hear my breath, my heartbeat,
the steady hum of my mind
for a single moment,
i am alive

and this thunder
deep, powerful, strong...
my heart in awe
my soul, enraptured

and i wish it'd never stop raining
because i never want to wake
maybe i'll just stay here,
here where i'm safe
just let the world pass by me

green
lights change, fast forward
inadvertently
blindly rushing again
while falling behind
that single moment, fleeting

always planning for the future
always wishing for the past
always lost in the present